BRAIN STORM
i am scared, i am fearful, my heart is raw
i’m walking the same road over and over
TODAY, i recognize nothing and no one
my fear is real, paralyzing
i have no idea what i am scared of
i feel it, in my gut
i feel it in my head and my heart
it threatens me, it teases me relentlessly, cruelly
i have become a master of disguise
forever hiding this brain storm
that rages upon me…….
never knowing where it begins or ends
at times, it settles and tricks me into false serenity
false bravery, false contentment
then just as i am about to walk out into the light
it comes back, laughing and strangling my dreams
it screams at me, your worthless, what have you done
no one will listen to what you say
you’re not worthy of all the things you believe
i want to scream back
i want to show it i’m strong
i know i am right and i know that its wrong
i believe in people, humanity and love
i believe in my generous God from above